are gonna be about my daily encounter with God while I’m in Indonesia, my home country. A record of 31-days walk with God.

Today is supposed to be day 14 already, but i’m gonna post day 1 onwards. this starts now.

Wednesday, 30th of November, 2011

Melbourne. I called Starbus the night before, told them to come at 8am to take me to the airport. They told me to wait downstairs at 7.45. I did. It was raining hard in the morning, had been waiting for nearly 40 minutes, the bus had not yet come. Had been calling their office for several times, they told me to wait patiently, there was traffic going on due to the bad weather, it was approaching la la la, and finally they advised me to take taxi at the last call. Pissed off i could be, but still have time and alternatives.

Called the first taxi. 15 minutes. No sign. Called the second one. Another 20 minutes. Called the third one. This time with complaints, impatience and a little high tone. Another 20 minutes waiting alone in the lobby. I bet the building manager kept thinking, “seriously, is she going or not, it’s been more than one hour”.

I was… very anxious. I couldn’t believe not even one out of four stopped by after waiting for 1.5h. It didn’t make sense at all! I even had the thought of not flying. I had been wandering in the lobby, in and out the building, for some time carrying my superhuge luggage outside waiting in the rain, just to make sure the driver(s) saw me. None of them were there to get me to the airport.

I talked to God during the wait. This is what i learned: to trust Him when things seem to be uncertain. I was like, okay God if I’m not supposedly going back today, then let it be. Still I had a mix of feeling, like God, what am i supposed to do right now? But I know deep inside, God assured me and instructed me, to trust in Him, in His unfailing plan. My friend who had been waiting for me in the airport called me, i almost cried, told her what was happening, how upset I was. It was a valuable lesson, to be honest, I didn’t expect this test of faith will take place before i left Melbourne.

And finally, the fourth taxi came, after waiting for almost 2 hours. It was 9.45, my flight was at 10.55. I told the taxi driver what I had been through, told him that i needed to get there ASAP, he got me faster access to the entrance. I made my way to the check-in as fast as I could. The immigration line was quite hectic that morning. Speeding my steps to the boarding gate, which is far enough to make me think of their final call. Whoa! I got in the plane, 5 minutes before its planned departure. Hallelujah! Not even received any final call. Yahoo! I’m flying back!

Approx 6 hours it took to Bali. Watching Invictus, which was set in South Africa. Somehow there was a great compassion for people in Africa. I just decided to sponsor a Ugandan deaf child, and seeing African kids made me to think of what more I can do for them. I kept asking Him, Lord can i got there one day? Please? Is this what you want me to do? Or is it just what I want? The rest of the flight I spent enjoying His presence. I really believed His companion was there for me, it was like He seated next beside me.

Just so you know, there was still a long way to go. I know, day 0 supposedly doesn’t exist in this story. Even if it does, it should have been very brief without any meaningful significance. It doesn’t happen in this story. This was just halfway and God already gave me awesome experiences.

Bali. I arrived probably around 2pm. Met Y. We planned to go around Bali for a while before catching the next flight separately to our own hometown, which was in 6 hours. Ended up waiting in the airport. Bali was really hot, huff! For those who are not used to it, you may end up with unstable emotion and hot temper. Things got pretty hostile between us.

In short, I thought I made her upset, or perhaps angry at me, because she had to buy coffee in Starbucks in order for us to sit. I know she hates coffee, she even hates the smell. Every time I talked to her, her responses were short and conclusive. No conversation, she was busy with her phone, i was with mine. I knew she was mad. We sat facing each other, most of the times in silence.

Okay, God, i know i was selfish. What to do now? Should I say sorry? Now? I was a bit upset with her action as well, i started to criticize her with my heart. I was very tense, but i can tell that God instructed me to love her, therefore say sorry to her and forgive her instead of doing nothing about it. Here, I learn to love her unconditionally and to be humble to say sorry.

After one hour or so, we had a conversation. I said sorry to her. She said she was not mad about buying coffee, she was mad for other reason. A reason that never came to my mind, or anyone’s mind at my position, i guarantee. She was mad because I’m too kind. It was shocking, what kind of reason is this to be mad at someone? Actually, there were stories behind this but its too complicated to tell in words and this day 0 is long enough. She told me what I have done.

Honestly, I’ve seen her as a gift from God for me to learn to love. And I tried to love her, to exercise His love. It turned out that she saw those attempts as if its a wrong thing. She even said that I look like I’m trying to look noble, that my deeds make her look like the meanie while I’m the angel. Speechless. I never mean it that way. In other words, she got mad because I offered her hospitality. Nevertheless, things got better between us, until her flight to her hometown. And I couldn’t help but thinking, trying to rationalize what just happened. For all this time, I kept His promise in Galatians 6:9. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. I didn’t expect that she would respond negatively. I expected something more like, I would win her for Christ through His love, or at least to set a good example for her.

During my wait for boarding, I met ST, he is studying in Melbourne and heading to Surabaya as well. We walked together to the plane although our seating was apart from each other. Everyone already sat, waiting for the plane to take off. Suddenly the pilot informed us that there was technical problem so we needed to get off and wait for further instructions. Whoa! I was asking God, is this what You’re doing or the Devil doesn’t want me to do His will in Indonesia? Haha! Interesting experience!

Got off the plane, lined up again for immigration, sat in the waiting room. This time, I had conversation with ST. It appeared that we go to the same church but we never saw each other. The best part of the conversation was that we could talk about God and a bit about our spiritual journey. Ha! Blessing in disguise! I didn’t spend my time, waiting for the delay, for nothing. I enjoyed my day, I did! I didn’t feel that 1.5-hour delay.

Got into the plane, I sat next to F. We go to the same church as well, i know her in Melbourne but I didn’t expect we would sit next to each other in the plane. During the flight, we had an interesting conversation. Non-stop. Again, I didn’t feel that time flew by and that we already arrived in Surabaya. What a day, God!

Surabaya. I promise you, this is my last stop. Reached home, i got into my room. I saw one side of the wall is full with pictures. Pictures of rock bands, punk kids, and alternative singers that used to be my idols before God found me. They were my gods. Looking at these, I’m very grateful that His grace has found me.

1 Peter 2:9-10

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.

Yes, indeed I once was in darkness, now I’m in His light, I once was nobody, now I’m His!

Thursday, 1st of December 2011

Devotional. 1 Peter 3:13-15

Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. “Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened.” But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord.

Bam! This strikes my heart! This verse answered my question to God the day before. Previously, I doubted if doing good can really win people’s heart for Christ. What is worse, is that if they judge you instead, or criticize you for loving them. That is sad. But yeah, that happens to me as well. I did despise God’s love to me, I sometimes still do it. I disrespected my cell leader despite her sacrifice and good intention. But she never give up doing good or loving me. Judgment or undeserved response won’t stop her, because she focuses on God. I thank God as well, that I’m always able to go back to Him, that He always finds me after all bad things I’ve done to Him.

1 Peter 2: 19-25

19 For it is commendable if a man bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because he is conscious of God.
20 But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God.
21 To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps.
22“He committed no sin,
and no deceit was found in his mouth.”
23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.
24 He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.
25 For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.

In the same way, instead of fear of being judged, fear God who will judge justly. Believe in Him, do not be troubled. Trust in His love, His wisdom, His goodness. Christ is your Lord, not people’s judgment. Christ is your Lord, who wants you to love unconditionally and without ceasing, just like He loves you that way.

Dinner with Cynthia and Silvy. I’m so blessed that I have friends like them, friends in Christ. We talked about our spiritual journey, we shared about God’s works in our life, my favorite all-time topic!

Little brother. Meet Cornelius, my little brother. Cheeky, chatty, and hyper. He couldn’t stop talking, he told me about what’s going on lately. I can see how God used his weakness and his past wonderfully to glorify Him. How he gives strength to those who see themselves unable, useless or left out. I know He has always done mighty things in this family, that He takes care of all of us :). At night, we also had devotional together :)

Friday, 2nd of December, 2011

Having my first cell group today with high school peeps! I wasn’t aware that I came there with pride, arrogance and judgmentality until. God revealed my weaknesses. Ineloquency. Deficient knowledge of the Word. Not critical minded. I thought I was good enough. Uh-oh, overrated. What a shame.

When I got home, I knelt and prayed. It appeared that this self-righteous girl was a bit shocked. Then He spoke to me.

Hebrew 12:4-11

4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
5 And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:
“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
6 because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.”
7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?
8 If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons.
9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live!
10 Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness.
11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

I’m worse than what I think I am. But Father loves me, more than what I can imagine. This is His love: that He disciplines and rebukes me, just how Father loves His children. It is for our good, what is good for us? To share His holiness. And so cheerfully submit to the Father. Trust in His love.

Saturday, 3rd of December, 2011

Meet my Dad. He is a single dad. A doctor. A man with noble heart. A lifetime learner. He is not perfect, who is but God? During the day, I got the chance to hear what’s been going on in the family while I was away. He talked about his job, his relationship, his problems in his workplace, issues in the family. He talked about how God works in his life as well. I’m so glad, really. How God takes care of this family become more and more evident each day. These are just some of His goodness that He showed me, how about those that are not apparent? I’m sure there is much.

Devotional. John 7:14-24

Doing God’s will has nothing to do with honoring self. If Christ was honoring Himself, He might be seen busy with making things up, perform signs for entertainment and fame. If Christ was focusing on His own profit, He’d forget about the people God entrusted Him with, i.e. none of us would be saved. But Christ was not selfish, He was filled with love. He was focused on doing the Father’s will and saying the truth that comes from the Father.

Church. Together with cell-group peeps, i felt just like in Melbourne, going to church with you family altar :) What I got from Him: God is faithful, and He is with me wherever I am.

Project. Thinking of going to nursing home with cg peeps. Still in prayer!

Monday, 5th of December, 2011

Romans 15:1-5

1 We who are strong ought to bear with the failings of the weak and not to please ourselves.
2 Each of us should please his neighbor for his good, to build him up.
3 For even Christ did not please himself but, as it is written: “The insults of those who insult you have fallen on me.”
4 For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope.
5 May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus,
6 so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Instead of focusing to please ourselves, follow Christ who is not selfish for our sake. What can we do?
Take action: Please others.
Intended purpose: for their good, to build them up spiritually

This is the act of encouragement. It isn’t a once-off thing. It is to be done along with endurance and patience.When there is practice of endurance and encouragement towards one another, unity is produced. One mind and one truth, everyone is being like-minded toward one another, following the example of Christ who is selfless. That’s our part.

No, we’re not doing this alone. God will give us the power of patient endurance and supplies encouragement, through the Scripture. This is God’s part.

Tuesday, 6th of December, 2011

Devotional. During my prayer morning, I got strong conviction that I’m in Indonesia for a mission, to do God’s will. I ask God, what is it?

Here’s the answer.
Luke 16:19-31 A story of rich man and Lazarus.
The following paragraphs are in reference to online bible commentary.

Are the roots of our life tied to earthly pleasure for our own selfishness? Or is it drawing from the spiritual well of God’s concern and compassion, which is reflected in ministering comfort to world of pain?

Remember these commandments?
1. Love God with all of your mind, heart and strength.
2. Love your neighbors.

It’s an inevitable relationship. To love God is to show compassion to the humanity He loves. Look out our window and consider those less fortunate than ourselves.

Would we still be selfish after knowing His selfless love? The love that brings Him to death in order for us to have better life?

Wednesday, 7th December 2011

Ephesians 4: 29
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. (NIV)
Don’t use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. (NLT)

No
foul or abusive language
evil word
unwholesome or worthless talk

Yes
good speech
what is helpful for building other’s spiritual progress
what is fitting the need and the occasion
encouragement to those who hear

How many conversations do we have each day? We have so many opportunities to edify others in conversation. This is a challenge for me while I’m in Indonesia. Gossip is one of my biggest downfalls here.

It’s been a week since my visit here. Most of the times I’m staying in, because all of my friends are not yet on holidays. Nothing much to do, compared to when I’m in Melbourne. But at the end of the day I always know there is always something to learn, to cherish, to thank for. God also put in my heart some friends that I need to pray for.

Thursday, 8th of December, 2011

Awakened. It’s 4 am in the morning I unusually woke up. There was a strong urge to get up and pray. When I prayed, God gave me this particular verse.

2 Corinthians 2:17
You see, we are not like the many hucksters who preach for personal profit. We preach the word of God with sincerity and with Christ’s authority, knowing that God is watching us.

I have never read this verse before. Although I read it over and over again, I didn’t understand what this verse meant. I asked God, for whom is this verse? I was listening, it’s for W. He’s sort of the cell-group leader at the moment. When? Tomorrow. Friday, we usually meet for cell group. Bizarre! I’ve never once in my life, asked by God to convey a verse to someone that I barely know, this one even with the time specified. I doubted straight away. It was like a whisper from my heart. It might be just my feeling. In the midst of uncertainty, I got another verse.

Romans 8:11
And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.

Uh-oh! It appears God assured me that it was truly the Spirit that communicated the message to me. But doubts remained. I got the feeling of fear as well, fear of being doubted, because we don’t really know each other well, i just met him once, seriously. However, there was also a question arise, what if God really wants to tell him this? what if he needs this? Okay, Lord please save me from this dilemma, could i ask for a confirmation? A sign? Please? The whole day I spent wondering and thinking about it. I ponder the last time God wanted me to obey a specific command from Him. I disobeyed, because I thought it was just a passing random idea. And I was… greatly rebuked. I don’t want that to happen again. Some time, I decided to tell W, even if it’s wrong, then nothing to be worried about, I’m learning to listen to His voice and to obey. At the other time, I doubted again. I kept thinking, I would never know whether it’s really for him or not until i speak it up. What if God really wants to tell him that?

Discovery. Found the greatest discovery in my life, in my house: Mom’s huge Christian literature! They are serious literature. I found NIV bible (I never knew she kept an English bible), Encyclopedia of biblical terms (they have all the original words in Greeks or Hebrew, the explanation, the translation, the true meaning etc.), books about other religions and how to speak to non-Christians believers about the gospel. I haven’t checked out other books but this is no joke. I was shocked. For me, if someone has this sort of books, they are serious disciples. And my Mom turned out to be one of them. Very proud!

Her diary. Another discovery of Mom’s. I just read some, cuz her handwritten was a bit too hard to read. All I can see is how she tried to be a good Mom, a good wife, a good person for everyone. It told me that it ain’t easy. I was aware that she worked really hard for all of us. She prayed every morning and every night. She read a lot of books about parenting. She was struggling with stress. I did not put my feet in her shoes, but I know that time was hard for her. It was hard when it came to face my attitude. I was a real bad kid, I was always against her. I swore to her. I once was angry to her and did not say happy birthday to her. I hated her. I did not want to talk to her. And I did believe that I would go to hell one day because I didn’t respect her. Reading this diary reminds me of how much I’ve been saved from my past failures :)

Devotional. Fear of the Lord
Acts 2:43 
     sense of awe (reverential fear)
Acts 10:35 
     treating Him with worshipful obedience and living uprightly
2 Cor 5:11 
     fearing the Lord with respect and reverence

Friday, 9th of December, 2011

Devotional.

Exodus 33:12-16
12 Moses said to the Lord, “You have been telling me, ‘Lead these people,’ but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, ‘I know you by name and you have found favor with me.’
13 If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people.”
14 The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”
15 Then Moses said to him, “If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here.
16 How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?”

The question Moses put up in this era could be something like “What distinguishes a Christian from other people?”

The moment I read this passage, I could only think of one thing. Holy Spirit.

What makes God’s people different from others? That they have Holy Spirit who lives in us. In the Old Testament, the presence of God was found only in certain place, such as tent of meeting. But since the coming of Holy Spirit, God’s presence is in us. His presence is not only at church, or any certain Christian conference or concert. His presence is in our school, university, workplace, at home, wherever we go, because His presence is in us.

How His presence is manifested in us? In His presence we find rest. In His rest, there is no worries, no anxiety. When we are aware of the presence of a powerful and loving God, we automatically put our trust in His power and His love. We surrender our anxiety and worries to Him, because we trust His love, that He will bring us through. Therefore God’s presence in us is reflected through how we see challenges, how we deal with problems and hard situations. Are we responding like there we have no hope? Or are we responding with faith, believing that He is in us and He will give us power to get through?

Obedience. Yes, this is the day. I haven’t settled my mind. I said to God, if W is coming first then I would tell him. If he’s not, it means the message is not for him. In fact, he was late. So during cell-group, i decided to keep silent. I wasn’t peaceful. When I reached home, I decided to message him and just tell him. Even if it was wrong, it didn’t matter. I wouldn’t know whether it was wrong or not until I told him anyway. One thing i learn, to trust Him, completely, not according to circumstances or my preferences, but to trust in who He is.

Saturday, 10th of December, 2011

Verse of the day. Romans 8:14
”because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God”
I take this as a confirmation of my lesson yesterday. His spirit led me, His daughter, to do His will.

Crazy Love. Have been reading this book, by Francis Chan. The first time I bought this book, i knew he’s gonna say something about God’s love but just no idea how deep. The more I read the book, the more I see God as a weirdo. How come God who creates the universe, who don’t need us, still wants to love us? Very weird. Nonsensical. Illogical. You name it. Yes, He is crazy. That includes His love as well, crazy love it is. If there’s anyone out there can give me one reasonable answer, please let me know. Unfortunately, He is indeed crazy about us. He knows we are like dust, but He remembers us. Imagine myself seeing dust, I don’t even bother being aware that dust is everywhere around. But He bothers. More than that, He loves us.

Giving. Still from Francis Chan. The later part of this book talks about loving the humanity God loves, it talks about giving out of love. John 3:16 - “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son..”. There is a causal relationship between loving and giving. I pray that as I’m going to do His will to give, I would be able to give out of love to God, and to the humanity He loves.

Family. Who else sustains this family if not the grace of God? Look at those single fighters. Almost everyone in my family is. My Dad, my little brother. My grandma, my auntie. They spend some days lonely. They stand weak and small in this big world. We are still together, and I am very sure that it’s not because of our strength. Many weaknesses I witness, in which I see more of His grace.

Sunday, 11th of December, 2011

Encouragement. Today’s sermon was about Barnabas, Son of encouragement. A Barnabas works behind the scene, with not much spotlight. A Barnabas rejoices when you rejoice, becomes shoulder for you to cry on, and gives you a call to persevere in the midst of monotony. Ever heard of this? “Everyone needs a Paul, a Barnabas and a Timothy in life”. I once envied my senior, she has her closest friend to share about her spiritual journey and so they grow together. I wondered that time if i ever get somebody to grow spiritually with, perhaps a friend like Barnabas. For all this time, I was surrounded by Pauls, the old members of the team. Don’t get me wrong, they are good friends, it’s just that I see more like my counselors whose maturity are far above than a friend at similar level. I prayed and He gave me a Barnabas. And we did grow together, we shared stories about our first encounters with God and ongoing state of our spiritual life as well. We attended bible study together, joined volunteer event for local housing, we were very close. But then things got a little rough, we go to different school and have different routines. We were still friends, we still met, just less talk, less catch-up. She faced a lot of downs in her spiritual walk, while I was proud with my ups. Then I began to see her as a not-good-enough Barnabas to boost my spiritual development. Very arrogant, i admit, it was very uncool. However, hearing today’s sermon woke me up. The initial statement was not complete. “Everyone needs a Paul, a Barnabas and a Timothy in life, also we each need to be a Paul, a Barnabas and a Timothy to someone else”. How foolish, I’ve been looking for a qualified Barnabas, yet I’ve never tried to be one. It’s like you want to make friend but you introduce yourself an enemy. Sometimes I focus on my own need that I forget I have a lot of people around me whom I can encourage. I was looking for a perfect Barnabas. Well, a better Barnabas means more like Paul but Paul is not Barnabas. Not just her, people surrounding me are my training ground to be a Barnabas, they are my opportunities to encourage. Why waiting for one? Why not becoming one?

Prayers. One of the ways of encouragement is to pray for them. James 5:16 - Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. Look around, you may find someone in need for encouragement!

Monday, 12th of December 2011

Devotional. Hebrew 4:9-11
There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from his. Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience.

Full and complete Sabbath-rest is reserved for the true people of God, who obeys Him and believes in Him. They key point i got is, to focus on God. To enter God’s rest means to rest from our own work. That’s when we can focus on God completely rather than our activities, our work, or our anxieties in life. When we focus on God, we look to His beauty, His power and His grace, everything about Him. When we really know, and believe the greatness of His love and power, we will trust Him. When we trust Him, we will obey, because we know the living God is our God, He is on our side. The great God is with us. Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest.. What is our effort? To know Him, personally. We strive diligently in seeking His characters, His heart, the person of Jesus Christ. Know who He is so that you can trust Him and rest in Him.

Machine gun preacher. This movie is about a former criminal who’s good at taking drugs and blasting guns. He was changed by God and was called to help African kids. Africa, again. I really want to go there. I know I’m not ready yet, but I really hope one day in the future I have the chance to do something there.

Refreshment. One thing I realize during my holiday here. I’m putting my working and studying aside. I feel like my focus is dragged to Him. No intervention for long prayer and meditation on His Word. Longer quiet time. A time of refreshing. I’m thankful that until today, God is bringing me closer to Him. God is about to show me something great and I’m waiting for it.

Tuesday, 13th of December 2011

Devotional. Hebrew 6:11-12
We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.

Faith. Absolute trust and confidence in the personality of God in Christ, that includes His power, wisdom and goodness.
Patience. Endurance and waiting.
Yes, Lord, I’m waiting for your promises! :)

By the Spirit of God. Went shopping with the girls. Lessons of the day: Do not buy what I don’t need and reduce worthless talk (i.e.gossiping). Last time, these are my biggest downfalls. But this time, it must be different. I’m not alone, the Spirit of God will make me able.

2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.